I didn't really expect to react the way I did yesterday when Jeremy found out about some schools that he got accepted to for teacher's college. I didn't realize how much I actually don't want to move to North Bay, Thunderbay, or Windsor. I feel terrible for crying and being such a baby about it. Jeremy has stressed and worked so hard to make sure he got accepted somewhere to complete school, and I acted so selfishly. But I guess that doesn't really matter now because Jeremy got accepted to Ottawa, which is the first 'out-of-town' choice if he doesn't get into the Toronto schools. And I'm more willing to move there.
I hate when life is so unpredictable sometimes. I want to know where we're going to be living in the Fall rather than waiting and guessing. But this definitely forces me to put more trust in God's plan. With the uncertainty of the future, I have to trust that God knows what He's doing, and that He'll provide for our needs.
God provides: this is definitely something I've been learning and something I've been blessed with this year and it's terrible how often I've actually stopped to thank God for what He's done. Jeremy has had 4 or 5 different jobs this year, with jobs falling through and other ones being offered right away. God provides. We've received mysterious cards with money in them from people that love us. God provides. We've had Monday night dinners with Jeremy's family all year. God provides. No matter what has happened, whether it be as big as losing a job or as little as not having a couch, God has taken care of our needs. If I can see that God has taken care of us, I need to trust that His plan is good, wherever we end up next year.
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